gemini

I don’t know what’s in you, that query me a lot. Should I give it a shot or should I just lay back? Should I follow the star or just leave it like that? Will you choose to stay even if it’s tough?

I’m close to running but you made me calmly stay. I almost close it but I’d rather wait ‘til that day.

Coz to believe is what Pisces Do, even if it’s hard to understand a Gemini like you.

so unreal..

dismayed, is what exactly i feel.
they were smiling like it was so real.
they talk behind somebody's back
when they don't even know the fact.

back stabbers is the name,
I don't know whats the game

One of this day everybody will know,
their true face will show
that behind those friendly facade
lies an unknown crap.

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But unlike the old times, i wouldn't bargain for the truth.. a lot had been said but they will just deny it i know. Just please don't smile, if what you freaking feels is unlikely.. don't bother to talk coz i know you'll just float.

I didn't remember any incidence that i hurt your name, I was so real yet you didn't do the same.
may magagawa pa ba ako? is being prank not good for you? so take that against me for all you can.. gone are the words you just said nonchalantly so is the truth that i thought you're somebody.

thank you for those who understand, thank you for those who were so loyal.
just like what nica said in one of her quotes:
"i don't gave anyone reasons to hate me, they create their own little drama of pure insecurity"

glad that i'm still smiling sincerely :)

It's your choice..

When I was a lil-bit younger, I never failed to rant when certain unwanted negative feelings creep my happy nest. But when I decided to step back, I get a glimpse of significant people I'm walking with in this journey of life.

What's the point? I realized that life isn't always what i have but whom I share it with.

Sure, there will be tons of joke life will throw upon you but its up to you on how to react on it. So get up and laugh your heart out because that's how jokes are meant to be.

With faith as you go along the way.. you'll never go astray :)

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to adryl,

thank you for the comment.
much appreciated :) hope to see you soon :)
miss you!

In the Midst..

in a small span of time.. sobrang daming nabago sa aking buhay. waa.. I know that i've always wanted to try to step out of my comfort zone pero parang i've change my mind na. ack!

But then again just like what mom always say.. struggle victoriously.
where is the optimistic marilou by the way?..

Somehow, i'm excited na rin. Sure, it will be different.. but who knows what lies ahead?

i'm still living and breathing.. what more can say? :)

ME and beyond

First time in our entire life nangyari na my sister and I were miles apart from Mom, Its 16 days na to be exact and on may 19 pa sya babalik from BohoL. Everybody's celebrating mother's day pa naman. waa.. we can't throw any presents tuloy, well aside from phone call. tsk.
Hope her long vacation with lola at bohol does wonders. :)
Love you mom! happy Mother's day! can't wait to see you :)

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aus din yung may blog noh? I get to scan back stuff that i wrote from the past, feel na emotions I put into words to form a paragraph.. smirk by the thought na I discover something on my own :)

These are the words in me.. me beyond what other's cant see :)

may reader din pala :)

na-notice ko lang.. ung counter ko nadadagdagan. hehe :) though i dont publicized this blog that much.. well aside sa friendster which i stated below my profile. aun dun lang.

siguro those who get to read my blog eh yung mga tao lang na who happened to care a bit that they manage to have time pa to hit my page.. well anyhow.. to you thank you so much!

And since someday naman.. maybe next generation of my blood line would give a bump here, i decided to be more serious on my next post. siguro something deeper. whatcha think? :)

pero parang mas ok kung magcocomment din kayo instead of just reading diba? :)

let me know :)

ang bago at luma

hindi ka daw pwedeng humawak ng bago hanggat hindi ka bumibitaw sa luma..
ang kaso pilit akong humahawak sa bago na hindi naman bumibitaw sa luma..
cguro dapat bumitaw narin ako. at pupunuin nalang ang mga kamay ko ng mga pangarap.
And hope na someday, someone would hold my hand too tight ang would never let go.

madali lang sana maghanap ng ipapalit na magmamahal, kaya lang ang hirap naman maghanap ng mamahalin. +yun un eh. :)

enjoy, chillax.. understand and compromise.
If your happy, i'm perfectly fine with that. :)

forget me is your only way out :)

you..

you..

i somehow knew i still could be happy even without.
i also knew someday i would want.

if i get tired waiting, i know i will search.
if its meant i know i will find.

without you, i will someday be incapable of anything..
without you, i would be nothing..

time will tell, time only knew.
time will be my friend, til i'm with you.. :)

teen no more

so the title said it all.

tomorrow i'm no longer teen, i'm be entering a new stage in which i should be acting like a real grown up.. yes i could say that i've matured a lot through all the years that i've been through.. being teenager really helped me a lot. it taught me lessons in which i have learned much.

teen, the foundation of my moral, character and built as a woman.
still the youth in me remains.. i'm still kid at heart. i'm still my dad's little daughter and it doesn't change somehow.

but then again i have to leave the childish act in me,
i'm somehow afraid that at 20 people should see me grow up in all aspect of my life.

should i change the way i dress?
the way i speak?
the way i walk?
the way i decide?..

sure i should be different by now, more mature at what they say..

so tell me where do i start?

enough of the rumbling thoughts, i'm still me afterall..
mistake makes me perfectly human and it should be something i should not be afraid of..

another year will be added to my age.
Thank you Lord..

Be positive.. This year is mine! :)

Happy Birthday to me! :)

.look ahead.

It's really a good thing that there is tomorrow and there is today that you can dwell into than just be stuck with the past thats hunting you..

hello tomorrow, goodbye yesterday.
and i'm still saying that i'm renewing myself again. (haha!)

bad habits are really not that hard to break.. it just need a little pushing to make :)